What if I ... These two words 'what if' are so confusing and caused me many sleepless nights debating on if I made the right choices in life. In the daily life I am a very happy and enthusiastic person. However sometimes when life gets rough I debate on decisions I've made in the past. In these times I can feel alone, not lonely but alone. Most of the decisions in life you have to face yourself, no one can make them for you. I told myself a little while ago that I have to stop doing this to myself, stop worrying. As the saying goes ' where one door closes, another door opens'. Although I completely agree with this saying, I still have to find my open door.
I often think about my childhood which was worry free, everything felt so peaceful and fun. playing and making friends was all that counted at that time, I wish life could continue in the same way. As we grow older we tend to learn more about the struggles in life and the 'bad' , which influences us in several ways. If I knew before how it feels like to be 'older' I don't think I would have wished as hard to get older when I was little. However I think we were all secretly wishing for our birthday presents haha. I guess what I've learned by thinking like this is that,' you got to enjoy life right now as we have less struggles than later on in our lifes'. As we are now worrying about choosing the right education or the right job, or really wanting those pair of gorgeous shoes but hesitating about spending the money. We later have to worry about people we might lose in our lives, the highest value in life. So lets enjoy life, and create our own open doors.